Day 16. Write a letter to your daughter, or a young girl in your life. Tell her what beauty means.
I decided to take this opportunity to think about my future daughter, and to write her a letter. I hope someday, I can show her this post....
My dearest, darling daughter,
I haven't met you yet. Your daddy and I have been married for two years, and we are working hard to be able to have you (or your brother?). I'm taking a medicine right now that we're hoping helps us start growing you, so maybe we can meet in the next year or so... that would make Daddy and me so happy!
While you aren't even in my belly yet, I have been dreaming about you for a long time. I want to be a momma so much, and I want to raise a daughter--you, my sweet girl--to be a beautiful princess. Not a spoiled brat, like some people think princesses are, but a beautiful, loving, daughter of The King. I look forward to teaching you how to love God, and how to show His love to everyone else.
I know when we meet you that you will already be a fighter. I can't imagine that time in a diabetic momma's body is going to be easy on a tiny baby, so you will have already passed hurdles when you are conceived and when you are born. You have to keep fighting. Not us, not other people, but for what is right. Don't you ever give up. Ever. Be beautiful and fierce when you need to be, and beautiful and gentle when you need to be.
I will do the best I can to show you how to be beautiful, and your daddy will show you how a man should treat a princess. He'll be the best example of what you need to look for in your husband (but don't forget--Daddy and I are both EXCELLENT shots), someone to appreciate and encourage your beauty and strength. I hope you can be proud of us... because I know we'll be proud of you every day. We're so excited about all of the possibilities for you. You can do absolutely anything, can make any of an infinite number of choices, and we look forward to teaching you how to make the best choices and watching the beautiful princess you grow up to be.
We're going to keep trying to meet you soon, but in the meantime, rest up! There are millions of things here that I can't wait to show you! Starting with your "brother," Charley... his ears are soft and long... you're gonna love him!
Always,
Momma |
| This is me, at age 18, holding your cousin Will right after he was born... I can't wait to have you snoozing in my arms like this! |
Your daughter is going to be so lucky to call you Momma someday! I so hope that someday is soon!
ReplyDeleteso much I want to say about this post.....first of all how much it touched my heart and secondly, how I can just hear your tears behind it, but also the hope that is there. I PRAY (really do pray) that you get the desire of your heart. This battle is something that I would not wish on any person, but I think that God chose us for a reason....perhaps so we will be able to enjoy our babies more when they are in our arms. My 3 babies are now in my arms.....but for so long, you know that that was not the case. The blessing I feel every single day is IMMENSE and I just KNOW that you will have that blessing in your life too! I agree with Beth who posted above. Your daughter is going to be so VERY VERY lucky and blessed to have both of you as parents. I can't wait to hear the announcement and make you cute baby things! I also hope that someday is soon....but if it is not quite as soon as we humanly hope for, I pray that you will have the peace to get through this! Look up. I just know your mama's heart will be fulfilled someday!
ReplyDeleteThank you both so much... your comments made me tear up :-) This was actually really fun and cathartic to write...
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